More Baby Gear!

When we started this whole process last month, our plan was to wait and start buying things once the home study is approved and we are "on the books" and officially waiting.  However, we seem to be stumbling upon some deals that we just can't pass up.  I blogged earlier this month about our crib and changing table set, which we found for $99!

Then, last weekend, we were walking through Target and rounded the corner to find a display of baby items on clearance.  We found a Pack N Play that we both absolutely loved marked down to $48!  I love the green and the monkeys are so cute!

We also saw a car seat / stroller travel system for $59.  It was half off the original price, so we just had to get it. :)  It's a beige color and has some safari animals on it.  It's very gender neutral, which is what we need since we are a long way from knowing if we'll be bringing home a baby girl or a baby boy.

I also think I've found a new option for crib bedding that I think we are going to end up choosing.  My husband is obsessed with monkeys for the nursery!

We won't be purchasing the bedding, though, because my mom wants to get it for us at some point.  And, other than a few other necessities, we are going to try to hold off buying a lot more because we want people to be able to get us gifts! :)

Letting go...

We have been trying to conceive for about six years.  (We have actually conceived twice, but one of those times the pregnancy was a confirmed ectopic and the second time it was suspected ectopic.)  So, needless to say, getting (and staying) pregnant has been a HUGE part of my life for quite some time now.    My monthly cycles have become a bit of an obsession for me.  The first half of the month is spent obsessing about ovulation.  Which cycle day am I on?  Am I having ovulation pains?  Are we timing things correctly?  Then, the second half of my cycle (the stressful "two week wait") is spent obsessing about whether or not we caught the egg.  Did we miss ovulation?  What are those twinges I'm feeling?  Do I feel nauseous?  Are my temps high because I'm pregnant or because I'm coming down with something?  Am I having any pregnancy symptoms?  Then my period would start and I'd find myself feeling really depressed and disappointed.  This has gone on month after month, for years.

When you think about it, it's actually quite a maddening process.  However, I just realized that this past cycle, I didn't obsess.  I didn't think about whether or not it was ovulation time.  I didn't think about trying to time things perfectly.  I didn't obsess over possible pregnancy symptoms.  I didn't realize it, but I wasn't obsessing and just living my life and letting things be as they are.  And it has been a really liberating experience!  Now that my focus has shifted to adoption, I feel like such a peace with my body and with my fertility situation (or lack of, I guess).  And I feel like things are going to be okay, whether or not we ever conceive.  Letting go feels really good.

We got our crib!

Yes, we have purchased a crib (and changing table) and we are not even through our home study process.  But, the deal we found on this set seemed too good to be true and we knew we would regret it later if we didn't buy it.  It arrived at the house today and I'm so excited!  Of course, it's still in the box and will remain there for a while... well, at least until after the home study is complete and after we paint the nursery.

We knew that we wanted something in a darker wood.  We also wanted something that was simple and not over-sized because our nursery isn't a very large room.  So, we got this set:
We just love it!  And we don't feel too guilty about purchasing it so early because we know that once the home study is complete, it will just be a matter of time before we bring home our baby.